Without HIM, will i still be here??

15th Oct 2010

257th day in Melbourne

RAINY.....

Strong winds and thunderstorms have hit Melbourne once again...For the past 3 days, it's been raining cats and dogs, and this will go on throughout the weekend..SAD! Well, i was fortunate that for the most part, i'll be at home, at least warmer and drier..Temperature has dropped further down to low tens, irritating..been feeling like i'm in winter again..

Didn't have a good sleep last night...been tossing and turning while the rain was splattering and wind was howling outside my house...don't know why, maybe i was nervous about meeting my sup to discuss my project..could be psychological..having gastric prob the whole night and suddenly in the middle of the night, i started feeling itchy and scratching.. for a while i thought my rash/allergy was back...ever since i got it back home for quite a period of time not long before i came here, but it didn't relapse since i came here..then suddenly i was scratching myself like crazy last night..

Heavy rain in the wee mornings and i know i can't walk 15mins in the open field to take my shuttle bus so decided to pay for public transport (1 train + 1 bus)..on my way to the bus-stop after alighting from the train station, the strong wind just blew my umbrella upside down..faint! I was braving the rain and running across the road without even noticing the traffic as i was only focused on getting to the shelter across the road..then a car honk at me and 2s later speeded past me..Thank God! That car almost hit me and it's my fault as i didn't look before crossing..i was reciting the Lord's prayer after that.. I was really in shock! Am still thinking about it now..if it's been 2s later, i might have been dead! Thank you Lord! I know you're watching down on me..Thank you for protecting me!

Didn't meet my sup in the end, she was sick..that alleviated my stress a little i must admit..but then, i was thinking she's always sick when she's suppose to meet me..last Friday, she had hay fever and was feeling unwell during our discussion and today, she didn't even show up in school...hope i'm not her stressor that made her sick..Lord, be with her too! Hopefully she can get well soon and we'll have a fruitful discussion!